I've recently been "diagnosed" with anxiety. I put quotes around that because I'm not sure if that's the right word, but according to the counselor I am on the 2nd most anxious level of anxiety that I could be. I've felt these feelings before, but they went away. These days, they never go away.
This blog will serve as my record of what's going on with all of this. I would never claim that my experience is the typical anxious experience, but I like to think that there are other people out there who will genuinely understand what I'm going through.
STORY TIME: I actually had an anxiety attach today. It came out of nowhere, and even though I knew that it was COMPLETELY irrational, it got to me. People get so accustomed to me being this outgoing, fun, lively person, and that's the persona that I'm expected to maintain. So today, when I got to lunch and wasn't very chatty, automatically it's assumed that I'm in a bad mood, or something bad happened, or that I'm being a Negative Nancy. So after lunch, I barely held it together. I was going between sad, frustrated, angry, and tired. So I said that I had a headache, and cleaned my apartment all afternoon. I guess that's how I deal with things, for now.
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